I am working on converting my blog to a different source which means I have to read old blogs and carry them over. This particular blog is making me think about how I’ve learned how important it is to look back at our journaling or writings and learn from it. This blog makes me realize that I am way more awake and in tune than I give myself credit for. I wrote this nearly 5 years ago. I feel such self-validation…which, in my opinion, is the most powerful of all types of validity. Look back and learn from yourself. We are our best teachers! Our paths, journeys, pains, joys…all the things…they are here to teach us! Be proud of your journey and lessons. Every step…good, bad, or indifferent, teaches us a lesson.
Over the past few weeks, I have really been evaluating my life and what I really want it to look like. What are my goals? What steps do I have to take to get there? I am slowly creating a road map to what I want my end destination to be. Does that mean that everything will go smoothly and there will be no obstacles? Of course not. However, I have learned that if you want something…you have to ask the universe for it. You have to put it out there for the world to see. That means allowing myself to be vulnerable and to not let fear stand in my way. In our November staff meeting, we really addressed this. What fear is…fear comes in many disguises. In a Jim Carrey commencement speech, he says that sometimes we make choices in fear disguised as practicality. How true is that? We make a choice of what we think is the safe route not reaching for what we really want because we think it is unattainable. I am here to tell you that it is only unattainable if you don’t ask for it. The only way to guarantee that you will NOT get what you want out of life….is to never ask for…never try. I believe that fear has many disguises…insecurity and uncertainty are just a couple of examples. I think it’s time that we face our fears head-on. Take a moment to think about what you want out of life because you truly only have 1 shot. You have 1 chance at life. I am faced with what I will call my own mortality as I will turn 39 on November 14 of this year. 39 was the age my mother was when she was killed in a car accident. She passed when I was 17 years old and at the time I didn’t recognize how young 39 was. Now I see it through her eyes…this This is all the life she lived…39 short years. I do truly believe that everything happens for a reason and at 17 years old I certainly could not wrap my head around why this happened…but now I think maybe it happened so that I could recognize how precious and short life really is. Now, as a result of her incredibly untimely demise, I can look at life from a perspective that I may not have seen otherwise and use that knowledge to pass on to anyone that will listen. Every second of every single day is an opportunity to take what you want. To knock fear on its ass and persevere. Think about what you want your life to look like…when those questions of “what will people think”, “is it impossible”, “who do I think I am to think I can achieve this”…recognize those feelings for what they really are…Fear…Kick its ass….shine through…you be YOU…in all your glory. You are a shining light that is only being dimmed by the hovering shadow of fear. Please please please…ask the universe for what you want and take it and run as fast as you can with it.